I dream. I really do. I don't dream the way that others do. By definition. :-) I'm going to have to start to focus on what my dreams are and really focus on them. Even if I think that others may think that they are (too) small. They fit me and what I want to do with my life. I dream of inspiring others, but not in a way that others will perceive as big. I don't want to be in front of large groups of people. I don't want to have to get up behind a lecturn to do it, but I nonetheless want to have a profound effect in the lives of the people that I contact. I want to create this effect through deeply personal and individual connections. I want to be in one-on-one situations where I'm pouring my heart out to a student or a collegue in such a way that they feel empowered to do whatever it is that they want to do with their life. I want to be that person that select people call when they need a boost, when they are feeling doubtful or unsure about themselves. I want to be in a position to encourage them in the very moment that they need it so that they don't give up; that they keep on pushing, keeping on going. I want to be that type of change agent. I do it already with friends and family and it is the most exhilirating thing ever. Yeah. Helping others live their best life by helping them remember their greatness. :-)
I don't have a real desire to talk to large groups. I am by no means afraid of them, I just don't particularly want to do it. I like seeing the light and passion return to someones eyes and voice after talking to them. :-) Instant gratification true. Haha. But especially with students, I know that I won't always see that light immediately. They'll probably make me wait for it, but I'm okay with that. It's those things that you have to work at long term that are always the most fulfulling. :-D
Okay. yeah. That's my big one. I can do this is numerous different outlets. And maybe that is why it is so hard for me to figure out exactly what to do. I can do this while doing other things.
Being the light and glory of God to my co-workers. That was the way that I expressed this at one time. I wouldn't use that exact phrasing any longer, but it does belie an understanding that this thing that I want to do so passionately may need to be a cognate to other activity. But then again, there is that nagging part of me that cries out passionately, "NO!" It's possible to do want I passionately want to do and only that. It is possible to have every facet of my life be a reflection of a desire of mine. It is very possible to have a life totally void of empty activity and productiveless behavior. :-) Everything can be necessary. It is possible to live fully. It is absolutely necessary for my personal happiness to find a way to do this. Additionally, there is a way to do all of this such that it is financially viable. Money is by no means my goal. It is simply a tool that can be used to further my dreams and those of others. And that is exactly what I want to use it to do. It will be my servant. It will be available to do whatever I want to do; whether that is buying something for me, buying something for someone else or giving it away to someone to do with it whatever they choose.
That is the type of abundant life that I choose to live.
All abundance flows to and through me in order to expand my joy and the joy of others.
